there are so many things i want. and none of them are objects. none of them would fit into my hands.

i have found that when a person has a dream, and a definite direction that they want that dream to go other people just standing around tend to get the fuck out of their way. sometimes other people will even lend out personal energy so that the dream is even further realized, even more quickly attainable.

perhaps we subconsciously recognize when someone needs something, and then we give it to them not merely for the sake of giving but because it will get them where they want to be and doesn't one person's happiness effect the majority and the whole?

[equilibrium.]

humans love balance. even more we love attaining balance. we love the struggle. and i think i will always prefer physical and emotional torture over creative and intellectual stagnation.

i want things. the trick is to imagine yourself already there. imagine yourself where you already want to be. imagine that you already have everything that you think would make you happy and what tends to happen is that who you are now fades into that imagining you hold for yourself. this is the magic. this is the gift.

if i had everything i wanted i would be finished bio 30. i would have four more high school credits and be in possession of a high school diploma. i would be enrolled in university. i would be learning massage therapy and reiki. i would be practicing guitar every night. i would be keeping a poetry book. i would be writing music. i would be involved with other artists. i would be busy using my camera. i would be training for a triathalon. i would be living.

because you cannot lie to yourself. because you cannot lie to the world. by saying "i am" or "this is true" the universe strives to make that into a reality. because the universe will not let you lie to yourself. because the universe will not let you lie to the world. therefore it must work for you. and everything you believe is real will one day have to be. because this is the nature of things. and you can detract from the truth but can't forever deny it.

i am finished bio 30. i am four credits richer. i am in possesion of a high school diploma. i am enrolled in university. i am learning massage therapy. i am learning reiki. i am practicing guitar every night. i am keeping a poetry book. i am writing music. i am involved with other artists. i am busy taking photographs. i am training for a triathalon. i am life.