[we played.]

brian came to visit last night and together we participated in the "iam" game. for those of you who don't know of it i'll let you into the loop. basically you get a bunch of colorful crayons, or felt markers, or paints [anything you feel good using actually.] and you write positive affirmations. for example: "i am creative." "i am free." "i am peaceful." etc... i've been doing these for about 6 months now and at first i would write something like "i am loving." and not entirely believe myself. hmmm - actually i thought i was a complete and utter fraud. i mean, how dare i state that i am loving? how dare i say something good about myself while struggling to believe it? it felt wrong. it felt like lying. but i stuck with it. and now when i write that statement i feel like i am only stating the obvious. "i am loving". naturally. i'm going to post a shitload of new ones around my apartment. i think it's all about taking the focus off of the negative. the point is to say them long enough and often enough that they began to vibrate and expand into your energy fields, until they began to take shape in your conscious mind, somehow creating the experience of the chosen "iam"

["i am humble." "i am worthy." "i am sacred."]

if you say them often enough you'll come to realize that they're true. and if you say them long enough after that you'll come to realize that they were always true.

perception.