what of the people who say they have given up the past, and yet continue to repent on a daily basis?

[you are just as stuck as the rest of us.]

and what of the people who say "i miss you" not because it feels right but because there is a want for someone to at least hear and acknowledge and respond?

[i hear the sigh that is your existance.]

you will wake up lonely and alone and afraid and if you think you are lost now you will be even more unsure of your direction then.

[i am happy sad for you.]

i said "i'm going to sleep."

what i meant to say was "i am hurt."

i said "i am going to sleep."

what i meant to say was "i don't understand."

i said "i'm going to sleep."

what i meant to say was "am i that undesirable?"

i said "i'm going to sleep."

what i meant to say was "i am frustrated."

i said "i'm going to sleep."

what i meant to say was "why am i not good enough?"