hi jason [J-hook Jupiter],

i'm glad you wrote. felix mentioned you briefly when he and i went out for juice. he told me that you had read the CWG books as well. i found these incredibly inspiring and i'm sure if i had not 'coincidently' stumbled upon the first in the series amongst a pile of books one night i doubt i would have such a high love for god. i'm glad to be able to converse with someone who has read the books as well. i believe you are the only person thus far. it's been a year since i read the first.

what you're writing sounds amazing. i would love to be able to take a look at it when you feel it is in some state of completion. i don't think i have the patience to put together a book of anything but short stories/ short poems. [smile] i think i would strangle myself after the first ten pages. either that or i'd abruptly stop the book with 'THE END'. and for some reader's that might be a little disappointing.

i think the human body is essentially indestructible and only through shocks to the system - caffeine, animal products, smog, stress, etc. - do we slowly commit a sort of suicide. i think i may check out that book you are suggesting. ["The Tao of Health, Sex, and Longevity."] i think the body when treated in the proper manner is invincible and at the time of death it is in as pristine a condition as it was at the time of birth. though, this would take an extremely conscious species.

what are you busy taking at school? i would like to learn massage therapy from a private practitioner while learning reiki. my greatest pleasure has been through providing comfort to others. i enjoy the maternal sensation it provides. i'm fond of creating peaceful ambiences. i like to take a space and make it as sensationally pleasing as possible. i have a dream. [smiles]

sometimes i think drugs can be a very helpful way of quickly experiencing another reality. the problem comes through misuse because it creates imbalance. this relates to the over-use of all things.

everyday i live like everyone else. i work - i sleep - i eat - i shit - i interact. but i notice that a large majority of the the time i'm doing so consciously. and i'm doing so with the highest intentions. whereas others are not. my point? i think you can do ANYTHING in this life and 'be' happy doing it. it's all a state of 'beingness' [happiness, depression, sadness, joy] what will YOU choose for youself?

“Go ahead and do what you really love to do! Do nothing else! You have so little time. How can you think of wasting a moment doing something for a living you don't like to do? What kind of living is that? That is not a living, that is a dying!”

Conversations With God --Page 185--

[yes.]

i believe you are speaking a truth when you say that we must rely mainly on our passions throughout this lifetime. we must allow these to drive us because when they do we think selfishly. we think self-centeredly and we ignore outside influence. we take responsibility for our lives! we create through our energy [a form of spirit] and make our own original beauty.

with love,

amber.