[i lack experience.]

you were right when you said i have no life. and it hit hard hearing it from you because it implies i'm using you as an distraction. it implies that while we spend an excessive amount of time together you are not part of my life. it implies i'm using you. maybe i was hoping you were still oblivious to the truth of the situation. maybe you still are.

[i'm fucking you on so many different levels.]

when you act in such a way that leads to the possibility of anger-frustration-hatred on my part i find it much easier to take advantage of you. am i to understand that this is the spirit of relationships? i doubt this is your intention but i see the wisdom in such moments. the perfection. still. a lack of intention implies a lack of conscious control. whereas i'm becoming aware enough to understand the nature of our game.

[it IS perfect.]

thankyou.